I HATE my boobs..

Like seriously HATE them...

I got Parker use to a bottle and whole milk so now I can quit breastfeeding.
I am SO ready for my boobs to be my own again!!!
So sick of leaky boobs as well lol
Well I am now about 35 hours without feeding
I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN
lol
I am almost willing to have them chopped off haha
I went online and was reading tips for stopping breastfeeding
Everything was about slowly stopping and yeah I am done NOW
lol so I am going to suffer through a couple horrible days
The hardest part is going to be sleeping :(
I sleep on my stomach/side and I am being forced to lay on my back now
I have been taking tylenol and using ice packs for the swelling but yeah..
It still looks like I have DD fake boobs! lol

Hopefully tomorrow I will be in less pain.
:/

On a happier note I still LOVE my hair! :)

The New Me

I got my hair cut and I LOVE IT!! :)

This haircut has given me a badass attitude!! I feel sexy and confident :) I love it!

Random Info

Holy crap I am tired!!
Spent the last two days with a very sick 2 year old. Not fun.
His fever finally broke today thank goodness.
I have decided to reach out and see if Evan needs a speech therapist.
He jabbers alot and can say about a handful of words but I'm just concerned he needs a little extra help.
I have tried helping him learn words but we both end up frustrated and get no where.
I went through a "I'm a horrible mother, I can't teach my kid to talk" stage but then realized maybe he just needs a little help and thats not a bad thing. If this is what he needs then thats fine :)
So tomorrow at 10AM a Parents as Teachers lady is coming over and going to enteract with Evan and see if he is doing fine for his age or if he needs extra help.

In other news! I AM SO EXCITED FOR FRIDAY...
I am so ready to chop the hair off!
EEEEEE!!!!
lol

Okay I'm officially out of things to say

peace.. lol

New Changes

I have been an epic failure with my blog and I am sorry!
I will try and make up for it! ;)
Cody is working a late shift so it is just the boogers and I.
Which is apparently why they are so damn grumpy! Maybe they are getting sick? They don't ever whine this much lol
anyway it is a cold rainy night and it is now FOUR DAYS until I do something incredibly epic and terrifying lol
I will be turning this....

Into this!!! AHHH!

(Just the cut not the color)

I am SO excited and scared at the same time!! lol

I think it will be great for me because I have always been very much a tomboy

More than that I have always had very low self esteem.

My sister is the fashion diva and wears the cutest crap lol

I never had the confidence to try and pull it off.

Well this hair cut is going to force me to wear cute girly clothes and accessories!

I am very excited and ready for this change! I hope it looks as pimp as I think it will lol

I will post pictures after I get it done! :)

In other news I am shocked my baby boy will be turning 1 next month!! This year has just flown by!!

He is "crawling" (more of an army crawl lol) everywhere!

He loves his walker and zips around the house :)

Evan loves that his brother is mobile, he pushes him in the walker and brings him

lots of toys to play with. They are best friends.

Well that is about everything I can think of at the moment.

I will try my best to keep up with my blog this time!

If You're Happy And You Know It

Scream Ye-AH! haha sorry I turned into Lil Jon for a moment but I'm alright now... haha

I am very proud to say that last night I finished my book!!!

*applause, big flashing neon sign "hurray!", lots of fireworks*

lol ahem... moving along..

I am still a tad in shock that I actually finished it! I seriously accomplished one of my all time goals!!
WOOHOO lol
and I'm super excited because my sweet husband agreed to have reading time with me!
(which is us reading the book out loud so I can get his every insight and thought! lol I'm weird but he loves me anyway thank god haha)
He didn't want to read along in short bursts so he promised he'd read after I had finished the whole thing

I would like to give a HUGE thank you to my best friend Laura aka King George!
Without her and our (drive to my house right now to read the new 10 pages that I wrote) sessions, this book could not have been finished! I love you and am already super excited to start part 2!!

I am having alot of fun with the colors arent I? lol

I hope you enjoyed my brightly colored post about my book lol

7 Facts

1. Tell 7 things about yourself
2. Pass it along to 15 other bloggers – Although I am NOT good at this so I think I am going to skip this BUT if you want to comment on this post with YOUR blog I will follow back and leave a comment on yours!

So  are we ready my pimptastic friends? lol

1. I have a very odd sense of humor and my vocabulary consists of words such as: "pimp" as in "that is so pimp!" lol "Homosexual" as in "Yes my phone is being homosexual" (I just decided one day to extend the term gay haha) "Epic".. Speaks for itself. I am also a very sweet kind friend who tells all my friends/family they are hookers, sluts, whores and bitches lol My friends know they are loved!!!

2. I am obsessed with Vampires! I have been since I was probably 10? I watched Blade more times I can count. I remember telling my dad when I grew up I was going to get the vampire symbol tattoo on the back of my neck like in the movie lol

3. One of my HUGE dreams is to wear a huge flowy princess dress and be released in a huge castle to run around all day pretending like I'm a princess running away from thieves and vampires lol Hey, vampires can chase princesses.. Let me live the dream damn it!! lol


4. I have a girl crush on Emma Stone. She is freakin gorgeous and funny as hell. I LOVE HER. I think she would be amazing to meet in person!


5.  "Rendan took Claire’s hand and pulled her into his arms where he softly whispered back, “I have lived a lonely life under the moon, I have found no other passion in this sunless life than in my mortal existence, that is until I found you my Claire. I have searched the world over for a reason worth living and I’ll be damned if I must spend one moonlit night without you by my side.” -- A random part from my vampire/romance book which is ALMOST DONE! I'm so excited!

6. I have dyed my hair every natural color except gray. I had pink highlights recently for the first time. My natural color is a dark blonde/light brown. I was a blonde blonde little girl and sadly grew up and my hair began turning a watered out poop color lol I began dying my hair when I was 17? Blonde, brown, red, black (that was accidental lol) After Parker was born I decided to try and get back to my natural color because the bleaching was killing my hair and curls so thus is my hair color now. My roots have grown out 3 or so inches and its alot lighter than I rememeber lol I am very happy to not have to touch up every 4 weeks (my hair grows very fast)


7. I live in a tiny hick town (pop. 1500? Maybe?) There isnt crap here but I LOVE IT. Our fast food consists of Sonic, Mazzios and Subway and we were doing good when we got the last two. Sonic is our only drive thru. You have to drive 30 minutes to get anywhere. Its just country enough to be perfect :) I don't have any close neighbors (course I do live on a huge ass mountain of a hill that I HATE HATE HATE in winter cause if it snows we're screwed. If it snows this winter there will be many posts about my hatred of it lol) but we are just outside town if we need something from the grocery store. I would really HATE having to move to a big city, it would depress me greatly. I love the fields and the farms and the woods. I can't wait til my boys are older and we can go build forts and climb trees together! :)

Random Motherly Thoughts

I feel like my schedule is so out of whack, I don't know whether I'm coming or going which is hilarious because I hardly ever leave the house lol
I love being a stay at home mom more than anything.
My mom stayed home with us and homeschooled us so I've spent my whole life with my ultimate dream of being a stay at home mom.
I am so thankful I can stay home with my silly little boys :)

I am so use to boys I am a little nervous about if I had a girl. I guess she'd just be a little tom boy, she would have to be a tough little thing to survive her brothers lol I asked Cody the other day if we could handle three boys (as I was having a heart attack imagining the damage three boys could do and how much they'd eat as teenagers YIKES) He just looked at me, smiled and said we could do it.
If we did indeed have a girl (I am beginning to believe it will never happen. I only make boys apparently lol) I'd have to change my blog name since it would no longer be Sammi and the boys. Hmm...
If we don't have a accident surprise before next summer then we plan on trying to get pregnant next July because for some reason I am obsessed with having a baby in April.
It's my birth month and so it's my favorite month of the year haha
I was THIS close to having an April baby but nooooo he came days before.
With my luck I'll have a baby on like May 1st oh I'd be mad! lol
Okay not really I'd be happy either way but of course my crazy inside thoughts will be hoping for an April baby. We can share the awesome month of April together! lol

I saw a picture of two little boys the other day and I had a mini heart attack because I can't seem to comprehend Parker walking and having two kids playing together. I am thrilled for them to be able to play together but I'm sad they are growing up so fast.

Evan and I are having a Ice Age marathon today! We've watched 2 and are now watching 3. Yes we skipped the first one because we watched it the other day lol I love cartoons on a very deep level lol
I'm a big kid what can I say?

I would 9 times out of 10 rather buy a cartoon DVD than any other movie. I think it's because I know I will get my money's worth out of it.
I watch cartoons even if the boys are sleeping lol
Next on my to buy list
1. Finding Nemo
2. The Incredibles


**Newsflash: I JUST realized the other day that they do not make cartoons anymore!!! Everything is Pixar. lol I know I am late in realizing this but thats beside the point**

I have decided Disney cannot make a bad cartoon, I have bought many Disney movies without watching them mainly because I know if I don't like it at least the boys would.
Movies I bought before I watched:
The Princess and the Frog <3
Despicable Me
Rango
How To Train Your Dragon
Ice Age 2 & 3
Tangled <3

And I love every single movie! lol (I know they aren't all Disney but you get the idea)

lol soo this was a long random post about children, my dire need for an April baby and cartoons lol Hope you enjoyed it.
This is Sammi, signing out.
Stay Classy San Diego
LOL

I Am Thankful

Since I will be running around like a chicken with my head cut off I decided to say my thanks today :)

"Parker stop eating the curtains!!"

Ooohh my children lol anyway I am thankful for my amazing life.

For my wonderful retarded husband (who is currently singing his own background music as he plays skyrim lol dork) I am thankful he puts up with all of my insane lameness and that he loves me so much. He is the love of my life, he calms me down when I'm upset, cheers me up when I am sad and constantly makes me laugh <3

For my big boy Evan, even though he pushes me to my limit daily and I feel like strangling him at times. I love the little person he is turning into and his ever growing curiousity.

For my chunky monkey Parker, he is getting so big I hate it! I am thankful I don't have to miss any stage of his sweet wonderful little life

For my amazing wonderful family, I could not get through a single day without them!

My brother Alex and his girlfriend(my eventual sister-in-law) Kaity ;)

                                             My sister Kendra and her husband Justin

                                                             My amazing parents

I am thankful for my best friend Laura, I would be lost without her. I truly think no one else on the planet completely understands me as well as she does. We each have half of the same brain, together we make one whole crazy person! :) I would die without you! The dead kind of die lol I love you Laura!

Thank you Lord for blessing my life with amazing friends and family.

Bad Blogger

So I have been very neglectful of my blog.
After a phone call, lots of yelling, crying and begging me to come back I told my blog I'd get back on lol
I have become well.... lazy and attempting to really focus on my book which is going fabulously!! I am within grasp of the ending, I am thrilled! Next task will be finding a publisher and sending off a manuscript with fingers crossed lol
I know it is a long shot to expect to get it published but it is a wonderful dream. I will have accomplished all (except having a girl) of my dreams if it happens! lol
Either way I am going to get at least one copy made into a book through some website, not sure what yet lol so I can have a copy of my book! :D hurray! lol I'll probably need a couple copies though because I have like five friends who all want to read it when Im done lol
This isn't a really epic post which saddens me slightly, I've lost my game.
But it is 1:17 in the morning and I am feeling like I'm half asleep so I'm probably doing pretty good!
So here is a cute picture to make up for the lameness!!

Evan sharing his drink with Parker :) hehe they are so stinkin cute!

So dear blog, I will try to make more time for you.
Please dont call me back crying it was annoying
and there were alot of computer sounding beeps which just confused the hell out of me.
You need to understand my book is important to me too so if you love me you will give me my space
and if I love you I will come back to you
sound good?

lol okay time for bed!

oh P.S. Parker is 8 months old today! :) He is such a big boy!

I'm Married To A Nerd

Welcome to my livingroom.

This is the Skyrim party.

4 TVS.
4 Nerdy boys.
1 Livingroom.
All night long.
The male version of a sleep over.


I had planned on posting this on
11-11-11
which was the release date for Skyrim and it is just pretty cool but obviously that didnt work out.

(I would also like to know how many people got married yesterday? I bet it was alot lol)

My brothers girlfriend and I ended up running to my sisters house so I could show her embarrassing videos of my brother dressed as a girl (lol he was like 11) Then we came home and Parker had a 102.3 temperature :( Poor lil man!!

So after tylenol and a cold wash cloth for about half an hour his temperature is under 100 :) Lets hope we can keep it down. I hate it when my babies are sick!


Naughty Boy Act of the Day:
Act #1. This is butt faces weekend and in a stressed out rush I attempted to get Evan's bag packed, get him dressed and finish getting myself dressed. So I'm on the phone with my husband who isn't home from town and I'm annoyed cause I hate running late. So I turn around and see that the boy I had JUST dressed had hopped into the empty bathtub and found a little container that was full of water and soaked his jeans. Yeah.... The only pair of jeans that fit him good at the moment. So needless to say he wore highwaters lol

Act #2. I am brushing my teeth before running Evan to his dads when I hear Parker crying. I look into the livingroom and see Parker (who is on the floor in his bumbo seat) crying because Evan is stepping on his foot. As soon as Evan saw me looking he stepped off. Yeah he got his little butt spanked! After he was made to sit there until mom was done brushing her teeth I had him give bubby kisses and then everything was alright again lol Good grief! lol