I miss you

I miss you so much. It hurts.
I'm so scared to contact you because I feel like you want
No part of me or my children.
That is scary.
Even more scary since I can't let you go.
I've tried so hard.
But I can't.
I love you and always will.
So this is as brave as I can be right now. I hope you see this.

Please accept my sincerer apology.

Hi. I'm sure this is probably a big surprise. Your heart is probably beating as hard as mine. I've tried so hard to convince myself that we've grown apart and are both better for it but there is something in me that won't let go. I miss you. I miss our insanely stupid and great times. I know I messed up and as did you. Neither of us is completely innocent. All I know is I've tried for two years to let you go and I can't. My soul misses you. It misses our friendship and I don't think I'll ever be able to let go. I don't know if you feel the same or if you've swept our friendship under the rug and moved forward. I'm so happy for you and your husband. I feel like you are truly happy and that's all I've ever wanted for you. I hope your life is all you've ever wanted it to be.  If you ever wanted to make an attempt to start fresh with us then I'm on the same page, if not then I hope you truly believe that I sincerely hope your life is as incredible as I hope it to be. I will always love you and no matter how hard I try not to I will always think of you when random things remind me of our million inside jokes. You will forever hold an important part of my heart. I hope you're blissfully happy Laura :)

Dear Ex-Best friend

Dear ex-best friend,
You have been on my mind a lot lately.
I've been remembering all of the good times
And all of the bad.
I have to say, you are the absolute hardest
Relationship I've ever had to move on from.
We were friends for 20 years and I can't let it go.
You have crossed my mind hundreds of times
In the last (almost) two years.
I remember how stressful our friendship
Was in the end.
it had become toxic.
We had been friends for so long that
We couldn't seem to speak
Without offending or making the other defensive.
I was too sensitive and never really spoke my mind
For fear of conflict.
Which also meant that I felt bullied
By your strong opinions but kept
Quiet instead of talking about it.

I have thought of you so often that I started
Wondering if something was wrong and
I would pray for you, for your safety and happiness.
Because no matter how long it's been,
 how many times I try and make myself
Believe we are better without each other,
I still miss you,
I still love you.
I honestly don't think that will ever change.
It's been almost two years and I still haven't
Deleted your number
Because a tiny part of me
Hopes that someday God will
Bring us back together.
I want to reach out
I want to try again
I don't know about you
But I've changed a lot
Grown a lot in the last two years.
I know we could never go back to how things
Were and I don't want it to
But the idea of starting fresh
Sam and Laura 2.0
It just sounds nice.
I don't know if we could or if you'd even want to
But it's been heavy on my heart today.
Honestly I was so emotional and thinking of you
That it reminded me of our connection/cord
And I may have secretly hoped you were in
The same inner turmoil and we were suffering
Together lol
You will probably never read this but I needed to
Get this written down.
I needed to know there might be some hope you'll
Someday see it.
If we never speak again I still want you to know
That I truly am happy for you,
I know nothing about your
Fiancé but I know that you look happier
Than I've ever seen and that makes me happy.
I hope you have a pimpin' life :))

Sweet Child of Mine(and the Hellion)

So as we know by now my youngest son has not
been an easy baby. Lots of yelling and sleepless
nights and just anger.
He is a hulk baby.
lol
Since he has learned to crawl he has completely
transformed!!
He is so sweet and happy!
He is smiley and so freaking adorable it hurts!

Last week he just woke up and decided
that he wouldn't eat babyfood anymore.
So now he is eating everything we eat.
He was an adorable chocolate face last night
after dinner when he tried his first
chocolate chip cookie.
So cute!!

He is however becoming a huge pain in the nipple.
Dean has started the biting during feedings and
yeah it hurts like shit!
Parker did the same thing but I feel like it didn't
last as long.
However I have probably blocked out most of that
horrific pain.

*lighting dims, lightning strikes, dogs howl, cat screeches*
And now to my hellion....
Parker is driving me batshit crazy...
He is so stubborn and whiney right now that I fear for his life
lol okay not really but it sure feels like that!
I am going to have to try some new form of punishment
because he has been spanked a billion times and he isn't
getting it. Evan made the connection, oh if I act bad I get
my butt spanked okay don't do that.
Yeahh......
NOT PARKER..
So as much as I hate to say it I think I am going to add
a timeout after each outburst.
We'll see how that goes..
He can't stop moving so being forced to stand facing the wall
should kill him. lol

Being a mom is never ending hard work
and no I'm not JUST realizing this lol
Just felt like writing it out so maybe
I don't lose my mind!

Well anyway I do suppose I have vented enough for the day.
Until next time, stay classy ;)

Sentimental Words of a Mother

My boys.

They drive me insane, fill me with pride,
embarrassment, anger and so much love.

It amazes me how different each of them are.

So small and already so unique.

Evan was my first baby. I was twenty years old and so clueless
as to what I was truly getting myself into.
I was blessed because he was an excellent sleeper from the get go.
He was anti-boob though and so as much as I wanted to breastfeed he
refused. After feeling like a complete failure as a mother I tried pumping
and he took the bottle just fine. It took some time but after a few
lectures from my mother I stopped feeling like a failure even when I returned
to work and dried up forcing me to turn to formula. I did my best and
we survived. Evan has always been my independent child. As an infant, baby, toddler
he has always been fine by himself, you could pass him off to anyone and he'd be fine
wouldn't cry or want me to hold him.
Which was great and a bit sad. As he reached 1 and then 2 we realized he was having issues
with his speech. I was homeschooled and have always planned on homeschooling my own
children, so the horrible realization that I couldn't teach my child to speak
crushed me. We put Evan in preschool with speech therapy classes and he has
made incredible progress. Since I am with him daily I have a hard time noticing his progress and I am beyond ready to have back and forth conversations
with my 4 1/2 year old. We are getting there but it is a very slow progress
and I am exhausted with waiting. I have to pray for patience a lot. Evan is so smart
and goofy and a wonderful big brother. I cannot believe he will be 5 this summer.


Parker is an entirely different child. He will be 3 this March. He was born a mama's boy.
Which was a wonderful change! It was amazing to feel like my child needed me! lol
He was also a good sleeper and all around a good easy baby. I was able to successfully breast
feed with him which was a wonderful experience. As he reached the terrible two stage we realized
that Evan was not the stubborn child we thought he had been, he had been easy compared to Parker's
toddler stage. He is smart and stubborn and pushes the limits constantly. He is the child that will most
likely be the death of me. lol Parker is funny, sweet and sensitive. That has been the biggest difference between the two. Parker is a crier, I know part of it is the whiney stage but he is just
sensitive where as Evan isn't. Parker can watch a sad scene on a cartoon and start crying, he
can get worked up over his brother playing a game on Gram-gram's phone and start bawling (yeah,
Evan was playing Temple Run and every time he got a boost he got excited and Parker thought
it was a bad yell instead of a happy yell and he started bawling.. haha) Even though he drives me
up the wall with his constant pushing the envelope and whining he is my sweetheart. He is the
boy who will run up and throw his arms up and ask for hugs. He wants to be held and to give kisses
and all of your attention. Parker is so smart, he learned his alphabet very quickly and he has an
excellent memory. Except when it comes to potty training lol He does fine as long as he is naked
but put him in undies and he forgets the drill. lol He is also a wonderful big brother and loves giving the "baby Dean" kisses.


Dean was my difficult pregnancy, horrible backaches, terrible nausea, pinched nerves and then let's
not mention the new anesthesiologist who spent 30 minutes trying to put in my epidural.
30 minutes of contractions AND shooting nerve pain, yeah I was not a happy lady. When they
finally brought in someone else and finally got it in I was deliriously happy that I told the lady
she was my best friend haha So long before Dean was born he was graced with the title of
Monster lol
He did TRY and make up for being a difficult pregnancy by coming 9 days early and since he
wasn't a girl he did grant me one of my life long wishes of an April baby.
(I was born in April and apparently as a kid I decided it means it's an epic month to be born haha)
He was born the last day of April, the day after my birthday.
Dean was the difficult baby, what could I expect after having two easy babies? I should have known
lol He had a hard time getting into a good sleeping routine, he has the most intense cry/scream
that makes you want to rip your hair out and strangle a chicken
lol okay maybe that was a step too far.
He has gotten better, took him a couple months to really get into a good sleeping schedule and
the last couple weeks he has been much happier since he has mastered crawling.
I have never seen a baby SO eager to move. The other two were excited to crawl but not like Dean.
He was so enraged he couldn't crawl and now he is getting mad that he cannot stand and walk.
Dean is determined and loud. I can't wait to see his personality as he grows but it kills me
that he is already so big. He is our last baby and it breaks my heart each day as he continues
to grow.

I cannot even imagine what life will be like in ten years. It scares the ever living crap out of me!
I will have a 14, 12 and 10 year old.. WOW.... okay, I need to hyperventilate into a paper sack now!
I cannot wait to see there strengths as they grow into young men. I hope they have my love of
reading and creative writing. The idea of one of my sons having my passion for writing
makes me so excited!(Because I want that, it will probably not happen lol) I hope they have a good
sense of humor and are kind when they get old enough to realize how lame their mother is. I hope
they are romantic and understanding like their dad. I hope they are smarter than Cody and I combined.

The thought of hurt feelings, broken hearts and all other pains I can't kiss away makes me want to
burst into tears. They are my little boys and I hate the thought of the world hurting them. Watching
your children grow up is hard and painful all around. I don't suppose it gets any easier.
I hope and worry everyday that I am and will be the best mother I can be. I suppose every mother
worries about that. I stress over the things I fail to do and forget to give myself credit for the
things I do daily. It is hard to live up to the wonderful mother I have. I still don't know what I'd do
without her. I am fairly certain I would be lost if I couldn't text her and ask her random questions
although I think she is getting tired of me asking her things I could find the answer to on google haha

This turned out to be a lot longer than I had planned but I guess I had more things I needed to say
than I thought lol So to wrap this up I have three entirely different, exhausting, crazy and completely wonderful little boys who I am madly in love with.
<3

Updates & all that jazz

Here's the update since my last post

My children are getting huge.

Dean is 8 months

Parker will be 3 in March!!!

It is winter and my working out has went to the crapper lol

I'm trying to stay motivated but yeeeaaahhh...

Damn winter straight to hell.

I miss running SO bad but I refuse to run in the cold lol
it's just a no go for me.

In other news I have started a new book and am
so happy to be enjoying writing again!
It only took what?
2 years?! haha

Anyway nothing terribly exciting is going on in my life
(well we are getting a puppy and that is VERY exciting! haha)

I will move right on to pictures of my handsome family :)

Such handsome little guys :)

They love their little brother :)

I LOVE this picture. It's so stinkin cute!

Our Christmas tree (stupid lights burnt out on the bottom) and our lazy cat lol

Christmas morning

Yes I did dress my family and I think we look quite dashing ;) lol

 

 

Ab Workout

Alrighty so my ab workout can be pretty random.
I have a few different things I rotate between because I have
retarded abs that if I can actually make them sore
they adjust quickly and stop becoming sore.

1 Min Plank(on elbows)
30 Second side planks (each side)
20 side bends (both sides with 15lb weights)
20 crunches with legs raised
20 sets scissor things (lay on back, right leg straight up and left leg hovering above floor, hold for 3 seconds then switch= 1 set)

That is basically what I try and do 3 times a week, sometimes I add other moves in but that is my basic :)

My Arm Workout

Work it.. Work it good!
Lol Yeah I'm lame I know..

 Anyway so I thought I'd make a post about what my workout routine consists of besides my running.

So on the days I don't run (usually Sunday, Tuesday& Thursday) *Saturday is my rest day unless I just can't get a run in on Friday then I just switch*

 

Okay so here is my arm workout

 

50 pushups 25 reps (girl push ups)

5 lb dumbbells

25-30 Bicep curls

20 Rows

20 Triceps extensions

20 Butterflies

20 Press'

 

I tried something different today and used 15lb dumbbells and did the same

routine (minus the butterflies and Press') but

only did reps of 8-10 except for the bicep curls

I did 12 of those and it was hard lol

 

I'm sure some of you studly people are going to think

this is a lame weak workout but hey, you just take your

studly butt and go judge someone else!

I am working my way up and getting stronger and this

is just where I am right now.

I am pretty proud that I can pump out 25 pushups without stopping.

Yeah they are girl pushups but I say they still count so woohoo!
Actually today I made it to 41 before I died and had to rest lol Not sure
where that burst of energy came from but I liked it!

 

I will try and get a post of my AB workout up next :) 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Body After Baby

Hello!

So I decided to start documenting my journey to get

 back in shape after having this sweet little

guy right here :)

He was born April 30th (day after my birthday) weighed 7lbs 06oz

Sweetest little monster ever! lol

 

During the last month of pregnancy I was so ready to get back

out there and start running again that I attempted it too soon

and hurt myself lol So after some resting I slowly tried again.

 

I started out by working back up to being able to run 2 miles.

After not running for 9 months that was a lot harder than I thought it'd be.

Last summer I ran outside mostly but this summer has been way too hot

so I've been running indoors on the treadmill 3 days a week.

On my off days I've been doing arms and abs if I'm not dead

from running then sometimes legs as well.

I'll make a post with all the fun details of my workouts soon!

 

It's been a little over three months since Dean was born, I have

gotten back down to my prebaby weight of 160.

I would love to get down to 145-150 but I'm just not sure

my body is capable of getting into that range without

having to starve myself and workout like a psycho on crack lol

So my goal is to keep working out and get toned.

The number isn't as important as getting toned and fit.

At least that's what I keep telling myself lol

I'm trying to stay positive and not be so damn hard on myself

Doesn't help that I have a very skinny younger sister (big hooker lol)

But she hasn't had any kids.

SO once again, be nice to yourself Sam! Grr

 

I am setting a goal to be kinder to myself

to eat healthier

and continue my journey to getting fit!

 

SO here is my progress so far!

 

 

 

1 Month after Dean                                      3 Months after

 

 

 

So there has been a definite improvement but I still have a long ways to go!

 

Hopefully putting this out there will help keep me motivated!

Check back and I'll post some more awesome info about my journey

to get fit!

:)

Dying A Slow Painful Death

Okay so that
MAY
be an exaggeration.
Does it feel like it?
NO!!!
I am on week 2 of battling a head cold and it is killing me slowly.
Last night/this morning I had horrible lower back pain which is not fun
but to be expected with being 6 months pregnant and having to cart around
a chunky (almost) 2 year old.
GAH I cannot believe my baby will be two in March.. He's getting so big!

So I guess I should inform you peoples that we are having
another boy! lol
His name will be Dean Lynn <3
It was a bit saddening at first and then I had a heart attack
imagining three teenage boys and how we would never have food in the house lol
But we are very excited
and May 9th cannot get here fast enough!
I HATE PREGNANCY!!!
I don't know if it is because this is our last or because I'm a stay at home mom but wow..
I am miserable and ready to push this kid out and go back to normal!
I have been sick through so much of it I haven't been able to stick to my workout plan
which is annoying.
Last summer I really got into running and then we started trying to get pregnant.
Well needless to say the first three months I had horrible terrible the world was ending
morning sickness lol
Then after that finally went away I felt okay but still exhausted.
Well then both boys and I got sick and I've been back to being unable to do my 3X week run/walk.
Luckily Evan recovered quickly. Parker still has a slight cough and a runny nose poor kid.

Another Lovely Detail.
If I cough or sneeze or laugh one more time and pee my pants I am going to scream!!!
Curse my children for ruining my bladder! lol

This is me at 24 weeks

And at 25 weeks.

I already feel so uncomfortable and bloated that I keep telling people I am sure to die before May. lol
I vaguely remember how horrible the last month and a half is but I already feel like I'm at that point
Someone needs to shoot me with a tranquillizer dart and wake me up when its time to go to the hospital lol

Okay thats enough complaining for one post.

Exciting News

I am still an epic fail with this blog. lol

Hopefully I will get better someday.



In other news!



We are expecting our third and final bundle of joy! :D

I am due May 9th 2013

We are very excited!



DECEMBER 11TH

we will be finding out if this little booger is a boy or girl!

I think boy but everyone I know hopes and prays girl lol

I'm preparing myself for boy but obviously hoping for pink ;)



Here are a few of our family pictures :)







The boys are getting so big!



Evan already pats my tummy and says "Baby!"

I'm nervous about Parker, my little mamas boy.

Hopefully he deals with a younger sibling alright..
I am very excited for Thanksgiving!
I'm finally past the horrible morning sickness and now
all I want to do it eat! lol
This pregnancy has been crazy different from the boys'
Lets hope that points to girl! lol

Hopefully I will post more soon! :)

 

Hello Old Friend...

So it has been quite a long time since I've been on here
but I felt it was time to come back :)
So lets begin with an update!
My boys are huge... lol

The boys playing with my necklaces lol

Evan on the way to see Ice Age 4

The boys just chillin' watching tv

Bubba, my little chunky monkey

So yes they are huge.. makes me sad!

ALTHOUGH!!!

This evening I was THIS close to strangling them (not really)

It was hot in the house and they would not stop getting into things

Thank goodness bedtime came just in time! lol

In other news..

My hair has gotten a lot longer :)

I'm growing it out so I can enjoy trying wavy crap so I can chop it off

even shorter than before!!
lol

Yes I am weird but oh well.

EXCITING STUFF

My husband and I are in the process of trying for a little girl!

Although I already know it will be a boy.. lol

God help me when they are teenagers...

BUT at least I can look back and say I tried.

I always knew I'd have 3 kids

And now to the REALLY weird stuff..

SO Me + Face paint + Bored= Awesome pictures! lol

Skeleton Evan

I did this today and I think it turned out pimp!!

Here is the unedited pic

This is me, my sister Kendra and best friend Laura.

We make epic zombies!

Alright I am out of fun stuff for today.

I will try and keep this up! :)

Day Of Horror

So today was the most horrible day EVER!!!

I woke up with a stomach bug and threw up ALL. FREAKING. DAY!
I couldn't even keep water down!
IT WAS HORRIBLE!! lol

After my hubby got home from work he ran to town and got me some gatorade and soup (he is so sweet) and I was FINALLY able to keep something down!! haha
Well since then I have been starving! My body is freaking out since I missed a day of eating lol

TOMORROW SHALL BE EPIC!

Tomorrow my sister and I are going shopping! That woman has a sixth sense for clearance sales haha
Sinc I chopped my hair off I have the confidence to wear more girly clothing
I AM SO EXCITED! lol
So she is going to help me find the awesome girly clothes yay!!
OH and we are going to go eat at Chili's YAY
See there is my stomach freaking out and wanting to eat like crazy lol

The boys are alseep and I am watching Tangled <3 Oh how I love this movie!

Updates & Snow White

I've never really been a fan of Snow White.
Something about her ridiculously high pitched annoying ass voice I think lol
Anyway so I've never had Evan watch it.
Well I was bored so I grabbed it and Evan is dying he is laughing so much
haha silly boy.
Looks like I might have to watch it more.

Boob Update
I am on day 5 of the dry up lol
I am no longer in insane pain so
HURRAY
lol
They still are swollen a bit but at least I'm not wanting to chop them off anymore lol


Tonight we should be getting the girls so hopefully that goes smoothly :)
This will be the first time in 2 months that they will be here when Evan is.
They started coming over while Evan was at his dads but since he joined the army Evan will be home.
So lets hope the kids get along and the girls dont get all mad they have to be around Evan.

Toddler Phase??
Alright so Evan is going through a rough phase.
He isnt biting so I guess I should be happy for that
but he does grit his teeth and come up and squeeze your arm/leg and sometimes violently kisses you lol
Not sure why he doing this but its weird.
It's almost like he has so much energy/emotion that he can't figure out any other way to express it but violently kissing/squeezing you haha
OH and he has started running up to me while I'm washing dishes or anything and hugging me from behind and kissing my butt.
I really dont like it!! haha
Oh well hopefully it wont last very long.

I HATE my boobs..

Like seriously HATE them...

I got Parker use to a bottle and whole milk so now I can quit breastfeeding.
I am SO ready for my boobs to be my own again!!!
So sick of leaky boobs as well lol
Well I am now about 35 hours without feeding
I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN
lol
I am almost willing to have them chopped off haha
I went online and was reading tips for stopping breastfeeding
Everything was about slowly stopping and yeah I am done NOW
lol so I am going to suffer through a couple horrible days
The hardest part is going to be sleeping :(
I sleep on my stomach/side and I am being forced to lay on my back now
I have been taking tylenol and using ice packs for the swelling but yeah..
It still looks like I have DD fake boobs! lol

Hopefully tomorrow I will be in less pain.
:/

On a happier note I still LOVE my hair! :)

The New Me

I got my hair cut and I LOVE IT!! :)

This haircut has given me a badass attitude!! I feel sexy and confident :) I love it!

Random Info

Holy crap I am tired!!
Spent the last two days with a very sick 2 year old. Not fun.
His fever finally broke today thank goodness.
I have decided to reach out and see if Evan needs a speech therapist.
He jabbers alot and can say about a handful of words but I'm just concerned he needs a little extra help.
I have tried helping him learn words but we both end up frustrated and get no where.
I went through a "I'm a horrible mother, I can't teach my kid to talk" stage but then realized maybe he just needs a little help and thats not a bad thing. If this is what he needs then thats fine :)
So tomorrow at 10AM a Parents as Teachers lady is coming over and going to enteract with Evan and see if he is doing fine for his age or if he needs extra help.

In other news! I AM SO EXCITED FOR FRIDAY...
I am so ready to chop the hair off!
EEEEEE!!!!
lol

Okay I'm officially out of things to say

peace.. lol

New Changes

I have been an epic failure with my blog and I am sorry!
I will try and make up for it! ;)
Cody is working a late shift so it is just the boogers and I.
Which is apparently why they are so damn grumpy! Maybe they are getting sick? They don't ever whine this much lol
anyway it is a cold rainy night and it is now FOUR DAYS until I do something incredibly epic and terrifying lol
I will be turning this....

Into this!!! AHHH!

(Just the cut not the color)

I am SO excited and scared at the same time!! lol

I think it will be great for me because I have always been very much a tomboy

More than that I have always had very low self esteem.

My sister is the fashion diva and wears the cutest crap lol

I never had the confidence to try and pull it off.

Well this hair cut is going to force me to wear cute girly clothes and accessories!

I am very excited and ready for this change! I hope it looks as pimp as I think it will lol

I will post pictures after I get it done! :)

In other news I am shocked my baby boy will be turning 1 next month!! This year has just flown by!!

He is "crawling" (more of an army crawl lol) everywhere!

He loves his walker and zips around the house :)

Evan loves that his brother is mobile, he pushes him in the walker and brings him

lots of toys to play with. They are best friends.

Well that is about everything I can think of at the moment.

I will try my best to keep up with my blog this time!

If You're Happy And You Know It

Scream Ye-AH! haha sorry I turned into Lil Jon for a moment but I'm alright now... haha

I am very proud to say that last night I finished my book!!!

*applause, big flashing neon sign "hurray!", lots of fireworks*

lol ahem... moving along..

I am still a tad in shock that I actually finished it! I seriously accomplished one of my all time goals!!
WOOHOO lol
and I'm super excited because my sweet husband agreed to have reading time with me!
(which is us reading the book out loud so I can get his every insight and thought! lol I'm weird but he loves me anyway thank god haha)
He didn't want to read along in short bursts so he promised he'd read after I had finished the whole thing

I would like to give a HUGE thank you to my best friend Laura aka King George!
Without her and our (drive to my house right now to read the new 10 pages that I wrote) sessions, this book could not have been finished! I love you and am already super excited to start part 2!!

I am having alot of fun with the colors arent I? lol

I hope you enjoyed my brightly colored post about my book lol

7 Facts

1. Tell 7 things about yourself
2. Pass it along to 15 other bloggers – Although I am NOT good at this so I think I am going to skip this BUT if you want to comment on this post with YOUR blog I will follow back and leave a comment on yours!

So  are we ready my pimptastic friends? lol

1. I have a very odd sense of humor and my vocabulary consists of words such as: "pimp" as in "that is so pimp!" lol "Homosexual" as in "Yes my phone is being homosexual" (I just decided one day to extend the term gay haha) "Epic".. Speaks for itself. I am also a very sweet kind friend who tells all my friends/family they are hookers, sluts, whores and bitches lol My friends know they are loved!!!

2. I am obsessed with Vampires! I have been since I was probably 10? I watched Blade more times I can count. I remember telling my dad when I grew up I was going to get the vampire symbol tattoo on the back of my neck like in the movie lol

3. One of my HUGE dreams is to wear a huge flowy princess dress and be released in a huge castle to run around all day pretending like I'm a princess running away from thieves and vampires lol Hey, vampires can chase princesses.. Let me live the dream damn it!! lol


4. I have a girl crush on Emma Stone. She is freakin gorgeous and funny as hell. I LOVE HER. I think she would be amazing to meet in person!


5.  "Rendan took Claire’s hand and pulled her into his arms where he softly whispered back, “I have lived a lonely life under the moon, I have found no other passion in this sunless life than in my mortal existence, that is until I found you my Claire. I have searched the world over for a reason worth living and I’ll be damned if I must spend one moonlit night without you by my side.” -- A random part from my vampire/romance book which is ALMOST DONE! I'm so excited!

6. I have dyed my hair every natural color except gray. I had pink highlights recently for the first time. My natural color is a dark blonde/light brown. I was a blonde blonde little girl and sadly grew up and my hair began turning a watered out poop color lol I began dying my hair when I was 17? Blonde, brown, red, black (that was accidental lol) After Parker was born I decided to try and get back to my natural color because the bleaching was killing my hair and curls so thus is my hair color now. My roots have grown out 3 or so inches and its alot lighter than I rememeber lol I am very happy to not have to touch up every 4 weeks (my hair grows very fast)


7. I live in a tiny hick town (pop. 1500? Maybe?) There isnt crap here but I LOVE IT. Our fast food consists of Sonic, Mazzios and Subway and we were doing good when we got the last two. Sonic is our only drive thru. You have to drive 30 minutes to get anywhere. Its just country enough to be perfect :) I don't have any close neighbors (course I do live on a huge ass mountain of a hill that I HATE HATE HATE in winter cause if it snows we're screwed. If it snows this winter there will be many posts about my hatred of it lol) but we are just outside town if we need something from the grocery store. I would really HATE having to move to a big city, it would depress me greatly. I love the fields and the farms and the woods. I can't wait til my boys are older and we can go build forts and climb trees together! :)

Random Motherly Thoughts

I feel like my schedule is so out of whack, I don't know whether I'm coming or going which is hilarious because I hardly ever leave the house lol
I love being a stay at home mom more than anything.
My mom stayed home with us and homeschooled us so I've spent my whole life with my ultimate dream of being a stay at home mom.
I am so thankful I can stay home with my silly little boys :)

I am so use to boys I am a little nervous about if I had a girl. I guess she'd just be a little tom boy, she would have to be a tough little thing to survive her brothers lol I asked Cody the other day if we could handle three boys (as I was having a heart attack imagining the damage three boys could do and how much they'd eat as teenagers YIKES) He just looked at me, smiled and said we could do it.
If we did indeed have a girl (I am beginning to believe it will never happen. I only make boys apparently lol) I'd have to change my blog name since it would no longer be Sammi and the boys. Hmm...
If we don't have a accident surprise before next summer then we plan on trying to get pregnant next July because for some reason I am obsessed with having a baby in April.
It's my birth month and so it's my favorite month of the year haha
I was THIS close to having an April baby but nooooo he came days before.
With my luck I'll have a baby on like May 1st oh I'd be mad! lol
Okay not really I'd be happy either way but of course my crazy inside thoughts will be hoping for an April baby. We can share the awesome month of April together! lol

I saw a picture of two little boys the other day and I had a mini heart attack because I can't seem to comprehend Parker walking and having two kids playing together. I am thrilled for them to be able to play together but I'm sad they are growing up so fast.

Evan and I are having a Ice Age marathon today! We've watched 2 and are now watching 3. Yes we skipped the first one because we watched it the other day lol I love cartoons on a very deep level lol
I'm a big kid what can I say?

I would 9 times out of 10 rather buy a cartoon DVD than any other movie. I think it's because I know I will get my money's worth out of it.
I watch cartoons even if the boys are sleeping lol
Next on my to buy list
1. Finding Nemo
2. The Incredibles


**Newsflash: I JUST realized the other day that they do not make cartoons anymore!!! Everything is Pixar. lol I know I am late in realizing this but thats beside the point**

I have decided Disney cannot make a bad cartoon, I have bought many Disney movies without watching them mainly because I know if I don't like it at least the boys would.
Movies I bought before I watched:
The Princess and the Frog <3
Despicable Me
Rango
How To Train Your Dragon
Ice Age 2 & 3
Tangled <3

And I love every single movie! lol (I know they aren't all Disney but you get the idea)

lol soo this was a long random post about children, my dire need for an April baby and cartoons lol Hope you enjoyed it.
This is Sammi, signing out.
Stay Classy San Diego
LOL